what i want to say to you but dont

when you ask me what i am spending all my time doing and jesus christ why dont i read more and for petes sake when am i going to finish my degree i want to say soon soon soon but i know that is not true and its not honest either because really in my mind i would rather quit everything and become an amateur naturopath and open a business on the ground floor of an old house i will buy on p.e.i. and i will truly help people with stomach pains headaches obesity physical and mental trauma and maybe even learning disabilities and i will garner a reputation and i wont need to advertise anymore and i will be known as the medicine lady but the truth is that probably wont happen because i dont hate what i am doing right now i just hate how you keep such a close eye on me and if what i produce is half-assed then so be it i can live with that because to answer your question i spend most of my time talking to friends and hugging and kissing and cuddling my love and im fine with that type of expenditure of time and i dont think its a waste and actually i think its the very best way in the world to spend my time because what if i died tomorrow and god asked me what i did with my life and i said i read books all day and we both agreed that was bullshit and that there were more important things i could have been doing like being with my people and expressing love.